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17/04/2006
To my mother
Cry a little, cry a lot!
I wished to see her tears
God made my wish come true
I saw her vulnerable like anyone
Crying loudly like I did many times
Her strength deserted her
Her cold blood dried in her veins
She lost control, like I did so often
I wished to see her sad
God made my wish come true
She once won the battle
She left me dead and bloodless
I see her now defeated
By the one to whom she dedicated her love
To turn me orphaned
I am glad but too sick to smile
She is no longer the powerful Hitler
She can never colonize any part of my heart
Coz every part of it beats to hate her
I wished to see you crumble
God made my wish come true
I only wanted you to know how I feel
Every time I cry, bleed or crumble
Sadly, I know that even you slept worn and weak
You will wake up with the same will
Preparing your hateful arsenal
To colonize the peaceful place, that is my heart
I would surrender all the places in my heart
If only you stop believing that love is taken by force
This time, I will not condemn myself as cruel and inhumane
But I will say instead that you are too cruel and inhumane
For having never known how to sow maternal love seeds In the haven of you daughter’s heart
I am sorry, I have given you all the chances
Now, my heart is sick of loving you vainly when you cannot
I heard some say that the mother is a teacher
The last lesson I took from you left a bitter taste in my mouth
So, I found bliss in ignorance
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It's sad... it's terrifying... it's so strong and poignant... Such a cluttered sadistic-masochistic-love-hatred quadrilateral!!! once again you move my senses so sturdily... I might be wicked, but I can't help seeing heavenly splendor in utter ugliness... This is all disheartening but the sun also rises ;-)
Ecrit par : Mimi | 11/05/2006
waiting for the famous rise, im enjoying cupful of bitter tears in my dark shell meanwhile !!
Ecrit par : Anaconda | 12/05/2006
Anaconda,
You always surprise me with ur strong, sincere, profound... wonderful style.
It's sad and terrifying, I agree (M) (Sorry the page's background doesn't allow me to read the name. I know who u are, but I'd like to use ur pseudo--- hehehe may be u could fix that M, moulat ddar told me u take charge of that for her!)
But we want more writings Anaconda!!! Give life back to this blog!! I know u have much to say!
Ecrit par : Kaoutar | 23/11/2006
Kaoutar> you're right, the color theme of this blog has to be changed... as soon as I have time, I'll try to fix the prob, provided that Ana promises to bring life again to this deserted little virtual island.
NB: the nickname you couldn't read was simply: Mimi... you could just select the line in which it is written, and you would have been able to read it... whatever, next time.
Ana> no need to repeat myself, my request is still the same... come on! wa raki lssa9ti fia l3gaz dialk a sa7bti... why don't we do a dual come back?! hum? yallah, I'm really bored to death!
Ps: miss ya ;-)
Ecrit par : Red | 24/11/2006
Hi Ana!
I am as terrified and marvelled by what u wrote as Mimi and Kaoutar!
May u live in peace now that u've seen that she's as hurt as u were times and times again.
I wouldn't dare to suggest u could try to forgive her, as I am sure u did tried times and times again, but I can't help thinking it could help u go on with ur life.
Anyway, I know u're a special, unique and wonderful woman, and I trust ur ability to find ur own solutions and happiness.
God bless u!
Ecrit par : Selma | 05/12/2006
hi gurlz !!
u know what? i deserted my blog for so long that i forgot my password !! and here i am finding your comments, i feel alive again and again (because i died times and times again, as selma wants me to forgive times and times again :p). by the way, you know what im doing to fix this broken life? Amnesia !!
Ecrit par : Anaconda | 06/12/2006
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