Anaconda

it's been a long time since i last sent any post, i have almost forgotten how to do it !
now, i am back, i hope for good. i dont want to get back to my aches...i feel like life is wasted in some senseless groans!!
i saw that psy...c'était archi nul !! doctors in Morocco are interested only in money, nothing else!! they dont even bother themselves to see whether their theories are still up to date !!
she was a woman, and all that she talked about is how much i will be paying her for her favors !!
my dad was angry !! me too! i was angry because i thought i was that weak...now, i know that no body will help me but myself not even the most experienced specialists...ils sont trés matérialistes qu'il ont oublié pourquoi ils exercent ce métier. it's no longer psychiatry, i think it's souls business.
now i am digging inside of myself, looking for a source of strength...
my friend once called me the phoenix, she believed in me, she believed that i would never give up.
sure, i wont !!